vomit

port led to me being very ill last night -.-

mistakes

I thought for once i had my head on straight, but yet again i seem to have made the same mistake i always do.

Majority of people learn from their mistakes. they grown, learn and thrive from the experience. But i have a habit of repeating situations. It doesn't matter how much i know it will spoil things I just continue my actions.
I wish I was smarter,

fml

from the words of mayday parade, "i can live with out you, but with out you i'll be miserable at best"

>.>

Everything Changes,

Past, Present, Future

I wish I knew what I wanted..
I've been set on the same thing for so long and now I think have changed my my mind

But instead of things becoming clear everything is just hazy, distraught and blurred..

sping!

the holidays await my drunken dancing, chain smoking and most of all my lack of responsibility

Why can't things be simple?

People have this thing where they always want what they can't have. To an extent this makes things more interesting, but in reality it makes society harder to live in.
People always want to be someone else, doing something else, their are few people who are actually content with what they have.
And its hard when people don't realise what they have is special and how if they opened their eyes they might realise that.
It's also hard when people continue to chase something for months, never stopping to realise that sometimes its not worth it.

I wish that everyone enjoyed what they had and appreciated how other felt about them.
Because sooner or later you lose it all, and then the cycle starts again - you want what you can't have.

bodies

"All we’ve ever wanted, Is to look good naked, Hope that someone can take it. God save me rejection, From my reflection, I want perfection."
- Robbie Williams

Robbie William's new song is so super good! Ahh, after the first listen I though "God this will grow on me." After about half an hour I was in love! Yet again Robbie you have made me happy.

Got home today I was in the worst mood ever, listened to Bodies and Across the Universe by the beatles and I felt better ^___^ mmm,
I would of felt even better if someone had sympathised, but I guess thats what Robbie is there for.

poison

the poison is thick and sickly sweet,
i like it so much

Ideal

sol seppy - enter one
the love of my life.

Everything

I am in the weirdest mood.
I feel sad, my body is tingling and when i close my eyes I feel completely peaceful.

I would describe my thoughts as 'ghostly' or ' sinister angelic'. Untouchable, above everything and everyone - as though I am so upset nothing else can hurt. I feel like I am breaking, piece by piece. But I am equally as strong, as though I know nothing matters. I feel like I am flying, and falling - that feeling you get from aeroplane turbulence. I feel so sick, I want to puke. I am cold, alone and pure.

Nothing matters.
I only cry for me,